whats up. its 11:32 and kristi cant sleep. she did not take her medicene, becuz her dad wont go to the grocery store, becuz he is oblivious to the fact that there is no food, given how hes hasnt been here since thursday nite. well n e ways.. russell wouldnt come and say bye to me. he refused. doesnt that make me feel special? well of course. im glad that i wont get to see him for a fucking year and he made it obvious he doesnt want to see me. he told me he will send the stuff that i left in his truck. he doesnt even know my address. it makes me feel great for him to tell me how much he values our relationship, and having to PASS MY FUCKING HOUSe TO GET HOME from where he was, he still cant come say bye to me. FUCK HIM. u know what.. not even just him, fuck people. it makes me feel great to make the same mistake of letting a person in for at least the 8th time and them stab me in the fucking back. well, for those of us who wonder why kristi doesnt give n e one a chance.. this is why. did russell think that in the beginning he would end up not being able to stand me and lie to me and shit? im sure he didnt. no one does. but it happens. i never will get close to ne one again. how many times have i said that now? plenty! becuz i want sumone to talk to and share what i think with and my feelings with. i have had no faith in people for the longest time, yet i still seem to try to manage and get one good one. i dont think that there are good ones out there. fuck the world im out
kristi