u guys should just stop reading this now. guess who's crying to their blog again? me!! i hate my fucking family, i hate my friends, and i hate me. theres no way around it. dad could give a shit less about me, which he proved tonite PLAINLY. my friends, well what friends now? i dont do n e thing with n e one outside of school except maybe alex, and sumtimes i dont even think he wants to be around me. well i hang out with wedge too, but he is a horny bastard and goes to the dumbass hoe sara to get sum.. and of course she gives it to him. brittani-emily. nuff said. maybe ill try to start hangin out with candice shes going thru sum bad times, but idk, she mite not even wanna talk to me. meagan and kira are always busy, i dont know who else i can hang out with. if u wanna chiull with me tell me and we can find a way. and me. theres gotta be sumthin the matter, i cant seem to get my fucking dad to pay attention to me and get the rite meal. whats my deal? just becuz i didnt live with him for most of my life doesnt mean he has to clearly show he cares about tery more than me, i mean he could at least try to hide it. be a bit curteous. but really what did i just ask? y do i have to be so messed up? i think im starting to go crazy like my mom, but i will not get depressed. being depressed is for losers who put too much into sumone and they loose them. no it wont happen. i wont let it. no fucking way do i ever want to care about  ne one else on this fucking planet but me. i have to do my research paper so i can get good grades and get my own ass into college.
kristi